I was "the slut of the town". Many boys thought that they could be with me just because "I was f*cking a foreign boy".

I grew up in a little town and I suffered a bullying situation at school. When I was 15 years old, I started a relationship with a boy. I am Spanish but he was from another European country. Massive immigration was starting in Spain and the town was welcoming many foreign people. They were considered bad people, thieves, mafia, and many other things. But he was a normal boy, someone who went to another country to get a better job and a better life. When our relationship was just in the first week, everyone in the town knew that a native girl was dating a foreigner boy. The people from my town (even the ones who were my age) looked at that like something terrible, and thinking that he was introducing me to a criminal world. It was not true. But instead of harassing him (who was, supposedly, a bad person) everybody took their anger out on me. It is an example of the sexism that women suffer in little towns. So I suffered terrible bullying consisting of insults, told to me or written in my notebooks. When I was walking in the street, people shouted to me horrible things. And I didn't understand why. So I was "the slut of the town". Many boys thought that they could be with me just because "I was f*cking a foreign boy". I have never understood the relationship between my private life and being a slut, or why having a relationship with a foreign boy could be a crime. Unfortunately, the situation was unsustainable for me so I decided to move to a big city, the capital of the province. But before that, I have been receiving counseling treatment. Nowadays, many girls from the town have relationships with foreign boys, they have children with them, or they have been pregnant but they didn't give birth to their children. Now it is considered a bad thing, but not as bad as before. I was a pioneer with that kind of relationship and all the village anger was thrown at me. Right now, seven years after, I can't go to my town. People remember my "lifestyle" so the insults start again. But not to the other girls. I haven't been in my town for 3 years. As I said, I tried but the situation started again. Maybe if I go right now, nothing will happen, but just when I think about it, I get nervous and panic. Could I ever go back? Could I have a normal life there? Could I go on holidays and enjoy the festivities? Maybe I will never know, because I am a criminal, and my crime was having a "unusual" relationship. Now I am 22 years old and I am living in a big city in Spain. Here, having a foreigner boyfriend is something absolutely normal.