I was affirmed as a “good girl” by showing no interest

I loved reading this! Your diary resonates with me even coming from a very different place. In middle school I was doing everything I could to deflect sexual attention/feelings (read: childhood trauma, gay - a wicked combo but that’s another story), while also trying to fit in and caring so much what other girls thought of me (on a few levels)! In a way, I was a beneficiary of slut shaming, since I was affirmed as a “good girl” by showing no interest. I’m sorry we all had to deal with this shit.