I thought I was dirty. I wish I had courage back then.

I was sexually abused and raped in 4th grade (10 years old). Nobody knew until I was 20. I’m 21 now. During my school life until my last year of high school I was afraid of my sexuality, of being hurt and called a slut for something I had no control of. I didn’t let myself have a boyfriend even though I was in love for 9 years with the same guy. I thought I was dirty. I wish I had courage back then. I feel sorry for the girls whom were marked as sluts. At least life is good now.