I cut myself for a year and once people found out about that they just made fun of me more.

Hi, Emily. I am a 13 year old girl, and I read your diary. I felt very connected to your experience and during my time reading I was surprised how many relatable things there were. When I was in 6th grade, I wanted a boy to notice me so I started dressing very inappropriate for my age, I said things and did things I shouldn't have and I got the attention of boys at first but it was the wrong attention. Many people called me a "slut" but it didn't affect me till I was 12, that's when I started believing what everyone called me. Disgusting rumors spread about me and it surprised me, I always thought guys liked a slut for some reason, but everyone started to treat me poorly. I was called a slut, skank, easy, etc. nearly everyday. A boy I thought I was in love with at the time used me, and never spoke to me again. Everyone at school found out what I did and I was bullied non-stop about it for a year. I continued doing stuff with other boys because I thought that it'd make them like me but they always left me, and then more people would hate me. I had one friend but then she started to agree with everyone and I attempted to kill myself because I felt as if my life was over. I cut myself for a year and once people found out about that they just made fun of me more. But this year I changed my image, I stopped dressing provocatively, I focused on school, and stopped messing with boys but one time I made a mistake and everyone had the bad reputation on me again. I lost nearly all of my friends and everyone talked bad about me for a long time. Many people still call me a slut but I ignore most of them, because I know I'm not. I'm just a young girl who had made mistakes a little earlier than others. Your story made me feel like I was not alone and inspired me so much, especially seeing how successful you turned out to be. Thank you so much for publishing this, it helped me so much and has given me confidence and hope for my future.